Archive for March, 2011
The days are starting to work themselves together now and I did not expect that to happen so soon. Last week I was enjoying the sunshine and the freedom, but this week it is back to work. And by work I mean looking for someone to pay me to do something I enjoy…I’m just trying to find out what that is. I figure I’ll work from home now while I’m not bored by it, but pretty soon I’ll get restless and need to be somewhere else near people for most of the day.
I dubbed yesterday “Resume Day” where I sharpened my resume, references, writing samples and ordered transcripts in preparation of the Great Job Hunt of 2011. I gotta say, ordering transcripts is not as easy as it sounds. Plus, USC charged me $12 and UNC Charlotte only $5, and I’m still not clear how their services will differ for the price. I also emailed a lot of my professional contacts to let them know that I’m looking and would appreciate if they kept their eyes and ears open. It took all day to do most of it. I never liked my alarm when I was going into an office everyday, but I really don’t like my alarm when my subconscious knows that really, truly, technically I don’t have to get out of bed.
Today was “Search Federal Jobs Day”. Those puppies take so long to hear back from, so I thought it would be the most efficient use of my time and get a jump start. There are several things out there, though none of them just right. The trick with the Feds is that you have to know your stuff, or at least be able to answer their non-KSA KSA questions sufficiently. Yes, I have a pretty varied background, but nothing that jumped out at me perfectly. There was one non-Fed job that was awesome and my quals fit perfectly, but I’ll save that information for another day. Needless to say, I’m already calling that job mine!
In other news, I’ve been pretty busy in the evenings, and that’s how I know what day it is. On Sunday, after a great tea session with Robbie G, the ladies of Pledged came over. Pledged is my Fighting Improv Smackdown Tournament (FIST) team with Alaina and Sarah. Our show is this Thursday, March 24th at 8:00 at Source Theater. Please come out because we need your vote in the March Madness style single elimination tournament. Whatever happens, it will be nuts ’cause these girls are craaaay zeeeeee. We like to laugh and play and be silly, and that will really present itself onstage! The ladies were over again tonight and we’ve wrapped up the format. Lookout. Also, 12 minutes seems so short after doing so many 45 minute shows…I’ll have to remember to get to the point faster.
Monday night SubCo came over for practice and it was great to see everyone together again. We didn’t have enough time to chat or get caught up too much because we were missing Laura (Rachel if you live in Lenoir), and didn’t want to leave her out. She’s also performing on Thursday night, but in the 9:30 show. Other than that I’ve been exercising and Jillian Michaels kicked my butt today. I went to Whole Foods for dinner. My car battery died and Corey had to jump it, so for that I am thankful that he is around to do manly stuff. That means I won’t get a ticket for parking on the wrong side of the street tomorrow morning. Last thing I need right now is a ticket sitting on my windshield.
Finally, Wednesday is day seven of the cleanse diet and it seems to be working. Again, I’ll have a post about my thoughts on this and more specifics, such as I don’t really believe our bodies need to be cleansed. It’s complicated. For now, just know that I’m losing weight like it’s my first week on the Biggest Loser Ranch (Lauren, they do weddings!!). I’m not trying to lose weight, it just happens when you eat a diet of rice, veggies, fish, citrus and yogurt. There are also lots of things you can do with this diet and I’ve had a good time experimenting with it.
And now it’s late and I have a ton of things to do tomorrow, like pay bills and finish my taxes. Then off to see a movie at the Environmental Film Festival with HiM. Speaking of HiM, here are all my shots from our fun day at the National Arboretum on Friday. Good night!
As you read last week, I was surprisingly let go from my job on Tuesday. I have been very busy since then getting everything situated after my vacation and catching up with people. Plus, I took a mini-staycation Wednesday through tonight to just relax and get back to DC speed.
A few good things have come out of this so far, mainly yet another way to appreciate my awesome friends and support system. I received calls and emails from all sorts of people (some of which I haven’t returned yet, and I’m sorry). It has been so wonderful hearing from all of you and knowing that I am loved! Thank you so much.
My sister mentioned that this is one of life’s bucket list situations that you can look back on and be grateful for the experience. I completely agree. Getting fired isn’t as bad as it sounds. The actual meeting wasn’t terrible and I lived, so I’m certain I could live through it again if I needed to! What doesn’t kill us makes us stronger, right?
Of course, I didn’t know what to do when sitting there as they told me about their change to my future. I took it like a woman with my head held high…not much I could have said to change their mind. I was happy they waited until after the vacation to tell me so I didn’t freak out about spending money while away. They told me around 3:15 on 3/15 and I found a weird rhythm to that.
They said I could have the office for the rest of the week to clean out my stuff and that I could leave at that moment if I felt like it. I wanted to stay for the rest of the day but when I tried to sign the documents and I was shaky all over, I knew I had to go home then. What else was I supposed to do?
I returned the next afternoon to get my things. Boy, I had so much stuff in my office I must have thought I was permanently settled there! It may take me awhile to get to a point that I feel safe enough to have that much crap at work again. Anyway, my biggest concern was what to wear to get my stuff? I couldn’t wear all black because I wasn’t in mourning. It had to be something somewhat nice but able to move things around. Ugh, do you see what I mean?
The worst part was the reactions from my colleagues. Some just didn’t know what to say so they avoided me and avoided any eye contact. I felt so weird…no one wants to be in this position, the least you can do is make eye contact! Most people were pretty cool and would tell me they were sorry. I had some good conversations with the bosses who got a further opportunity to explain themselves. I would have probably done the same thing to me if I were in their situation so I don’t blame them. I don’t blame anyone.
Someone mentioned to me not to take it personally. Funny enough, until that person said it, I hadn’t! Luckily, I still don’t. One thing I’ve realized about life outside this blog is that it isn’t about me. I haven’t cried or moped or whined or complained yet. It is what it is. I accept that, and like any good planner, I am looking forward. I am taking a bit of time to try to envision what that next step looks like. It certainly is not clear yet, but I know it will work out. Of this I have absolutely no doubt. Until now, I have only had situations where I dream of a job, then I go get it. The tough part this time is dreaming and envisioning what that looks like now.
Well kids, get your blog reading shoes on because it’s going to be a blogging frenzy for the next week or two here at the Megan Jane Update!
The Good: Australia and New Zealand posts! It was a wonderful trip and I have lots of photos and things to say about it. It may take me awhile to sort everything out, but I have time because…
The Bad: Yesterday I was laid off of my job for financial reasons (I was pretty expensive to keep around). It sucks because I enjoyed the people and projects and really believe that they are making our world a better place. No hard feelings, and I’m pretty optimistic about finding something new and interesting. I will certainly blog about the progress!
The Ugly: I’m starting a cleanse diet for the next four weeks. Yikes! It will force me to get in the kitchen and explore some veggies! I am excited about some of the ideas I have and will hopefully blog about the “recipes” I create. The Aussie food has me very inspired.
So that’s what’s new! Now that I have a bit more time, I hope to post more often than twice a week. Check back often…
As is usually the case when I travel, I get to thinking. Uh oh. Mostly I think when I’m alone like I was for most of today, unlike when I traveled with my troupe mates these last two weeks. Today I toured “Windy Wellington” on my own. I always pay attention when I get a free day so my conscious can see how my subconscious likes to play. From my travels in Europe, I know I like design museums, but I haven’t run across many of those here. Now that I think about it, I did pick up a New Zealand design magazine at a coffee shop and read it cover-to-cover while scarfing down a veggie quiche.
Anyway, I had some seriously deep thoughts today, none of which will make any sense or be remotely clear or relevant to anything. I’ll share nonetheless. Actually, maybe I’ll share the questions I was toying with and continue to work through them, reporting back later. It’s pretty late now…
1. If money were absolutely no object, what would I do? How would I spend my time? Where? I know I’ve answered these questions a billion times in my head, but for some reason I took myself seriously today. Something clicked when I realized I may be selling myself short in some of the dreams and aspirations I have for my future. That was a strange realization because I consider myself to be a pretty big dreamer and do-er. I know dreams change as we get older, but today I realized that having success so far has made me less of a dreamer. WTF? I know better.
2. What should I do with a free day, and why can’t I do more? I say this quite frequently: I have only two speeds…super fast and completely stopped. It’s either/or for me, and that is evident on my vacations, too. It’s not all bad. This just means that I walk a ton, see a bunch, then poop out at a cafe and chill for an hour or two and just watch the world go by as I sit. I do this at home and struggle with it. I wish I could be the type of person that has one constant speed, but I’m not. I often wonder how this will work in my future and if this is sustainable as I get older. I’m also not sure if I should just appreciate it and learn to work with it, or if I should sincerely think about adjusting this behavior.
3. Time to start thinking about going minimalist…again. Well, that’s not a question, but something weighing on my mind. Everything I’ve needed for life in the past two weeks I’ve been able to fit in my 14kg carry-on sized bag. Yeah, I could use a laundry machine about now, too. But other than that, I really don’t need much. I love how experiences like spending time with loved ones and exploring new places make me realize that everything else just makes me feel heavy. I have almost forgotten home, so I wouldn’t miss anything. I have such a terrible memory and it is tough to recall home other than the feelings of happiness it gives me when I think about it. I have a few possessions I would like to keep around…like my new bikini because it will be the only suit I can wear this summer thanks to some hideous tan lines after a few days in the sun with a blotched sunscreen job. Point is, I have an entire closet full of things I don’t wear and the day after vacation is typically a good time to go through it. If I don’t look forward to wearing it after seeing the same crappy options for two weeks, then I’ll never look forward to wearing it.
It is getting late so I’ll stop there. I will do my best to write down some other thoughts throughout the day so it won”t be a jumble of messiness. I am happy that I have 24 hours in Los Angeles so I can ease back into the country and talk some of this out with my west coast peeps. They usually have good perspectives on these type of thoughts since they are not as involved in my day-to-day life as they once were. Oh, the transition back to reality….I do not long for you yet.
Hey friends and family…things here in Oz are going great! I only have a few minutes, but I’m keeping track of everything and hope to post much more in the future when I return to the US and when internet time isn’t as prized and valuable as it is here. A couple things…
- Our shows at the Adelaide Fringe Festival were fantastic! Of the five, some were great and some were pretty good, but at least we know which is which. And regardless, we had lots of fun and learned tons. Our audiences seemed entertained and appreciated our skills and laughed quite a bit. Adelaide is a beautful city and I hope to return one day. Much much more on our shows later…
- I’m back in Sydney for the next few days. Going to Coogee Bay beach tomorrow with Russ while Goli is working. I suspect I’ll hit the Blue Mountains on Wednesday, then it’s off to visit Patrick in Wellington on Thursday. Today was a low key travel day, so it’s nice to get caught up with a few things.
- It has been so much fun to travel with Goli, Nick and Darnell. I don’t think I’ve laughed this hard in a long time. (At least not since the Subsidized Corn road trip to NC the week before I left.) We not only got to be better performers through all this, we also got to be much better friends. It will be sad to say goodbye to Goli on Thursday, but I’m trying not to think about it.
- I have a buh-jillion photos, including photos from Goli, Nick and Darnell, plus video (minus the nights of the video mishap…which unfortunately included our best show). I’ll post when I return, but I am very excited to share with you all. Hopefully some of this will make more sense with photos and video.
- No word if the Beast won the Winter Weather Warrior contest. I’ll keep you updated as I hear more.
That’s it for now! Going to meet Goli for some German ice cream….we still haven’t figured out what that is, but we liked it the first time so we’re going back. Tasted like regular ice cream to me!